Welcome to Phynyx Ministries!

Hello Beautiful Survivor!

Welcome to Phynyx Ministries, a place where you can obtain lots of helpful information to help you break your silence and begin to heal from being sexually assaulted. If you are not a Sexual Assault Survivor, perhaps you know someone who is. Please feel free to share this website with that person. This website is also a place where Survivor's can share their story, a poem, or words of encouragement with a survivor or anyone who chooses to visit our site.

I praise God for allowing me to survive being sexually assaulted because I now know what my purpose in this life is - and that is to be an example to those survivors who may feel that they can't move forward with their lives in a positive way. There was a time in my life when I thought that I'd never leave the confines of my mother's bedroom which was where I retreated after the attack. But I continued to pray to God for strength, peace, and sanity. I sought professional treatment and had an awesome support system.

It's been 15 years since that cold November night, but today I am happily married, have two beautiful daughters, and living life to the fullest. The road to recovery is not easy, but I made it and you can as well. Don't get me wrong, I still have flashbacks from time to time, but I've learned not to let them consume me. I know who I am and what I'm worth...I'm worth more than my attacker thought I was and like the Phoenix, I will continue to rise.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

(...what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good...)

Genesis 50:20

Monday, September 26, 2011

A Little Morning Inspiration...

Quote for today:

"May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly
where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite
possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others. May you
use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has
been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you
are. Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul
the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and
every one of us."  ~Author unknown

Have an awesome day on purpose!

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Being in God's Presence...

"Be still,  and know that I am God."
Psalm 46:10

Jesus said, "You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit--fruit that will last.  Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my  name."
John 15:16

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ?  Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?  No, in all things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.  For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:35, 37-39

Hello Beautiful Survivor,

Have you ever been in God's presence?  If so, how did you know that you were?  Did you hear His voice?  Did you feel the holy spirit or was it more like an out-of-body experience?  Well, it was an out-of-body experience for me.  And I know for a fact that it was God's presence protecting me.

I thought to myself as I lay there on the cold crisp grass that was dampened with dew, "My, look at all the stars out in the sky tonight; but where's the moon?"  It was all I could do to take my mind off of what was about to happen to me.  I could feel the cold steel of the handgun pressing into the left side of my stomach as he proceeded to violently take what belonged to me, the most private part of me...

For a moment I felt nothing as he continued to push into me.  It was like I was in limbo; neither here nor there.  I remember silently praying, "God, please help me."  And then something happened.  It was as if God had taken my spirit out of my body and up with Him.  I was having an out-of-body experience; out of my body and into God's Presence!  I knew my body was lying on the grass being brutally assaulted at gunpoint by this crazed person, but I had an aerial view of this horrible event taking place.  I could see everything as if God had taken me up to sit at His feet, hallelujah!  God wanted to be sure that my spirit was not harmed in any way, shape, or form.  And although my body was harmed, my spirit was not.

So again, have you ever been in God's presence?  I have, and it's a wonderful place to be.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Psalm 46:1

Thursday, September 22, 2011

A little morning inspiration...

Good Morning Powerful Survivor!

In my quest to find information that would be helpful to us, I came across a website by the name of Motivated Sista!  This is an awesome resource for women interested in empowering themselves and others in a number of areas.  Check it out and be inspired and Motivated my Sista!  Have an excellent day on purpose!

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Here are 10 quotes to inspire you to keep going. When the going gets tough, its time to dig in your heals and stay focused. Let’s get it in in 2010!

You don’t become what you want; you become what you believe.
Oprah WinfreyYou may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.
Maya Angelou
Sometimes you’ve got to let everything go—purge yourself . . . If you are unhappy with anything . . . whatever is bringing you down, get rid of it. Because you’ll find that when you’re free, your true creativity, your true self comes out.
Tina Turner
Don’t settle for average. Bring your best to the moment. Then, whether it fails or succeeds, at least you know you gave all you had. We need to live the best that’s in us.
Angela Bassett
I really don’t think life is about the I-could-have-beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don’t mind the failure but I can’t imagine that I’d forgive myself if I didn’t try.
Nikki Giovanni
I have learned over the years that when one’s mind is made up, this diminshes fear.
Rosa Parks
Whatever we believe about ourselves and our ability comes true for us.
Susan L. Taylor

Just don’t give up what you’re trying to do. Where there is Love and inspiration, I don’t think you can go wrong.
Ella Fitzgerald
When I dare to be powerful – to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid.
Audre Lorde
Never underestimate the power of dreams and the influence of the human spirit. We are all the same in this notion: The potential for greatness lives within each of us.
Wilma Rudolph

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

God's Presence...

God will not let your foot slip--he who watches over you will not slumber...The Lord watches over you--the Lord is at your right had; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.  The Lord will keep you from all harm--he will watch over your life; the Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forever more.
Psalm 121:3,5-8

He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.  With long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation, says the Lord.
Psalm 91:15-16

Be strong and courageous.  Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave your nor forsake you.
Deuteronomy 31:16

Hello Beautiful Survivor!

Joshua had been challenged!  God commissioned him to lead the children of Israel into the promised land.  Joshua had been chosen to assume the responsiblility of leadership in the place of Moses, one of the greatest leaders of all time.  Joshua received his marching orders from God.

Joshua knew that the task was beyond his natural ability.  He realized the seriousness of being their leader.  Fear gripped his heart.  How could he handled such a responsibility?  It seemed an insurmountable task.  The Jordan River was at flood stage. He had been in the land before to survey it and knew the strength of the enemy.  But he could move forward, standing firm on Gods' promise, "As I was with Moses, so I will be with you."  Having God with him, Joshua was a majority.

Courage is firmly facing difficulties and obstacles, knowing God has promised to be with you.  Joshua could move into the land with strength and courange, focusing not on the obstacles but on God, who is completely trutworthy.  Will you trust Him?

With love,
P. Skyy and M. Stamm

Saturday, September 17, 2011

A Little Morning Inspiration...

The message written below is from the heart of a very dear friend of mine.  She is not a Survivor but sends daily inspirational text messages to friends and family.  I asked her permission to post this one and I hope it speaks to your heart as it did mine.

Good morning family!

Whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.  Bind up that spirit of fear, that hate, that painful past, that loneliness, that debilitating guilt, that addiction , that unforgiveness, that flesh, that gossip, that doubt, that sickness, those hurting finances, that anxiousness, that impatience, and whatever else is keeping your from God's Peace!  Bind it up, bind it up and loosen...God will supply ALL my needs, with God ALL things ARE possible, HE will NEVER leave me or forsake me, He plans to prosper and not harm me, plans to give me hope and a future!  Claim it and have a great day on purpose! 

Submitted by:  Tanya K.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

O LORD Have Mercy On Me...

O LORD; hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy; in your faithfulness and righteousness come to my relief.
Psalm 143:1

Do not withhold your mercy from me, O LORD; may your love and your truth always protect me.
Psalm 40:11

Have mercy on me, O GOD, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge.  I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed.
Psalm 57:1

Hello Highly Favored Survivor and Receiver of God's Mercy!

I was baptized on September 18, 1996 and was sexually assaulted on November 22, 1996.  Although I attended church regularly growing up, I didn't get really serious about developing a relationship with the Lord until I was saved then baptized in 1996.  At that time, my life changed dramatically.  Every time the church was open I was there; attending every regular service, prayer service, sunrise service, Tuesday Night bible study, Friday Night Service, Saturday Morning Soup Kitchen, ministry anniversary, Women's Ministry Meeting, choir rehearsal, event rehearsal, you name it--I was there.  I was in church so much, my friends stopped inviting me out to gatherings and events because they knew that I would decline in favor of some kind of church service. 

As I began to learn more and more about the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost, I thought to myself, "The Bible is a huge book with a whole lot of little words in it.  How was I going to read that whole thing and know every scripture forwards and backwards?"  Rev. Jenkins preached in one of his Sunday morning services that , you don't have to know everything thing in the bible, but what you do know, you better know it good.  That was all I needed to hear as I felt a tremendous burden being lifted from my shoulders.  So every morning I'd carry my bible with me when I left for work.  Then I would sit in my car and read the 23rd Psalm over and over again until I memorized it in it's entirety while my car warmed up before driving to work. 

It was a cold November night and I felt a little uneasy in my spirit as I walked up the dimly lit stairs and path to my apartment building's front door; but none-the-less I kept walking.  As I approached the door I look up and see a man standing at the door but off to the left of me.  He's wearing a mask, leather jacket, dark pants, boots, leather gloves, and is holding a gun pointed directly at me.  I immediately start reciting the 23rd Psalm...

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
 3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
   for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
   through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
   for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
   they comfort me.
 5 You prepare a table before me
   in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
   my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
   all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
   forever. Amen.

I then pray in my spirit, "O LORD JESUS have MERCY on me, please, please O God.  I don't know what's about to go down but I know you can and will protect me."  As this person instructed me to walk around to the back of the apartment building, I recited the 23rd Psalm over and over and prayed to the Lord to spare my life and to  have mercy on me...and He did.  The devil was so angry that I gave my life to Christ, that he launched this brutal attack on me.  "...what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good..."  (Genesis 15:20) It's 15 years later and I'm still here, finally telling my story because the Lord told me that there is someone in this world that needs to hear it.  Is it you???

With love,
 Phynyxx Skyy

When I say that I am Christian...

When I say that 'I am a Christian', I am not shouting that 'I am clean living.
I'm whispering 'I was lost, but now I'm found and forgiven.'
When I say 'I am a Christian', I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide.
When I say 'I am a Christian', I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on.
When I say 'I am a Christian', I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess.
When I say 'I am a Christian',
I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it.
When I say 'I am a Christian',
I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name.
When I say 'I am a Christian',
I'm not holier than thou, I'm just a simple sinner who received God's good grace, somehow.

-Author Unknown