Welcome to Phynyx Ministries!

Hello Beautiful Survivor!

Welcome to Phynyx Ministries, a place where you can obtain lots of helpful information to help you break your silence and begin to heal from being sexually assaulted. If you are not a Sexual Assault Survivor, perhaps you know someone who is. Please feel free to share this website with that person. This website is also a place where Survivor's can share their story, a poem, or words of encouragement with a survivor or anyone who chooses to visit our site.

I praise God for allowing me to survive being sexually assaulted because I now know what my purpose in this life is - and that is to be an example to those survivors who may feel that they can't move forward with their lives in a positive way. There was a time in my life when I thought that I'd never leave the confines of my mother's bedroom which was where I retreated after the attack. But I continued to pray to God for strength, peace, and sanity. I sought professional treatment and had an awesome support system.

It's been 15 years since that cold November night, but today I am happily married, have two beautiful daughters, and living life to the fullest. The road to recovery is not easy, but I made it and you can as well. Don't get me wrong, I still have flashbacks from time to time, but I've learned not to let them consume me. I know who I am and what I'm worth...I'm worth more than my attacker thought I was and like the Phoenix, I will continue to rise.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

(...what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good...)

Genesis 50:20

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Thank You God...

Hello my beloved Survivor!

Today marks the actual 15 year anniversary of the day that I was attacked and sexually assaulted at gunpoint in the woods behind the apartment building that I lived in at that time.  I just wanted to take a moment to share with you my conversation with God on this morning.

Dear God,

Thank you for waking me up this morning and allowing me to see yet another glorious day.  Lord I thank you because you didn't have to wake me up, but you did.  There was someone who went to bed last night and did not wake up; so for this, I say Thank you. 

Lord, you know that it was 15 years ago today that I was sexually assaulted.  There's no need to go into detail about what happened because you already know--you were right there with me the whole time, hallelujah, thank you Jesus!!!  Since that day, you have blessed me tremendously in so many different ways.  You, oh God, YOU allowed me to live, because that person could have pulled the trigger, killed me, and left me for dead right there, but NO, YOU said NO not my child, there is a great task that I have for her to complete!!!  Her family needs her, the husband that I will send to her needs her, her 2 beautiful baby girls that she will give birth to need her!!!This world STILL needs her!!! I thank you Lord for returning to me everything that I lost that on that cold November night...my sanity, my self-worth, my confidence, MY LIFE.  THANK YOU JESUS!!!  There is nobody greater than you!!!  Thank you for choosing me to carry out your vision for Phynyx Ministries.  Thank you for choosing me to be that beacon of light for all who have experienced some sort of sexual violence in their lives--to let them know that they can move from crisis to confidence and get their lives back on track.  There is life after the silence; I am a LIVING witness that there is. Oh glory to your name Lord, I love you, and I thank you.  In the matchless name of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, my soul says Amen, Amen, and Amen.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Why Me? Well, why not you???

Thus speaketh the Lord God of Israel, saying Write thee all the words that I have spoken unto thee in a book.
Jeremiah 30:2

For what saith the scriptures? Abraham believed God, and it was counted unto him for righteousness.
Romans 4:3

Hello Inquisitive Survivor!

Growing up, I was always told by adults, "Never question God; He knows what He is doing" or "God don't make no mistakes." At one point in my life I did question God like so many of us do or have done in the past.  Seriously, being sexually assaulted will make you ask God WHY???? 

During my recovery phase of the assault, I spent tremendous amounts of time in prayer and meditating on God's word.  At that point, I didn't know what else to do.  I felt that God was the only one who could help me.  One evening as I knelt down beside my bed to say my nighttime prayer, I cried out to God, "How could you God!!!  How could you allow something so horribly vicious to happen to me???  I love you and I'm trying to be the person that you would have me to be. WHY???"  With tears streaming down my face, I cry out again, "Why did you allow this to happen to me? And what do you want me to do NOW that you've allowed me to SURVIVE and remain on this earth???"  A hush came over the room, and I heard that still small voice, you know the one--the voice of God say, "Tell Your Story."  He said, "I want you to tell the world how I brought you through and that it was by my grace and mercy that you can tell your story. And when you do, so many will be healed."  I couldn't believe what I was hearing.  He also revealed to me that night that I am to open a Sexual Assault Recovery Center to house Survivors, start a Sexual Assaul Healing Ministry in churches, write 2 books, and start a foundation to raise funding to benefit Survivors and their families.  I actually said to God, "Whoa, whoa, wait a minute now.  I can't do all of that; I don't know how to do that stuff.  I don't even know how or where to begin.  God you gotta give that to somebody else, not me."  Then God said, "Why not you?"

At that moment, I stopped questioning God and telling Him what I can't do.  I got up from my knees found a writing pad and a pen and began to write the vision of what is now called Phynyx Ministries. As God spoke, I wrote.  It took me about an hour of non-stop writing to get in all down on paper; every singld detail.  After I wrote it all out, I closed the book and placed it on the floor beside my bed and went to sleep. 

From that point, upto this past June of 2011, I would hear various preached sermons or hear speakers talk about being obedient to God and carrying out the task that He has placed upon you.  I would then begin to feel so very convicted that I would be in tears apologizing to God for not birthing Phynyx Ministries. Until one night, I saw singer/actor Tyrese Gibson on TBN talking with Steve Harvey about his new book, "How to Get Out of Your Own Way."  He spoke about how we are so fearful of doing what God has told us to do that we miss out on the many blessings that He has for us.  If we would just get out of our own way, our lives would be so incredibly fulfilled and God would be pleased.  So again, I was convicted.  I began crying and apologizing to God, then I frantically looked all over my house for my book that had the ORIGINAL Phynyx Ministries notes in it.  I couldn't find it anywhere and began to cry even more!  So I called my brother to talk to him because he always understands me.  I chatted with him for a few minutes, got off the phone, then looked for my notes again.  Couldn't find them. I heard that still small voice of God again say, "Just write it again."  I found another book, sat down on June 10, 2011, and wrote the entire vision all over again just as I did in 1996.  God is so Good!!! 

"...what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good..." (Gen. 15:20)

Everything that we experience in life, good and bad, can help someone.  God wants to use us and our experiences to bless others.  God does know what He's doing and chooses the right people to test to give them a testimony to help heal others.  So if you're asking God, "Why me?"  Why not you.  God don't make no mistakes.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Are You A 'Kept' Woman?

A Kept Woman

I Am a 'Kept' Woman
You see, there were a few times when I thought I would lose my mind,

But GOD kept
me sane. (Isa. 26:3)
There were times when I thought I could go no longer,

But the LORD kept
me moving. (Gen 28:15)
At times, I've wanted to lash out at those whom I felt had done me wrong,

But the LORD kept
my mouth shut. (Psa. 13)
Sometimes, I think the money just isn't enough,

But GOD has helped me to keep
the lights on, the water on, the car paid, the house paid, etc., (Matt. 6:25 -34)
When I thought I would fall, HE kept
me up.
When I thought I was weak, HE kept
me strong! (I Pet. 5:7, Matt. 11:28-30)
I could go on and on and on, but I'm sure you hear me!

I'm blessed to be 'kept
Do you know a 'kept
' woman?
If so pass it on to her to let her know she is 'Kept
I'm 'Kept'
by the Love and Grace of God.

Author:  Unknown

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Friday, November 11, 2011

A Little Afternoon Inspiration...

Dans to the Sun II

Hello Sunshine!

Here is a little more inspiration from Michael Gallagher (Nugget).  This picture was taken on Anna Maria Island in 2008 and shows Nugget Dancing to the Sun!!!   Pat Gallagher (Nugget's dad) says that all Nugget wanted to do the entire time was to talk to the ocean, sun, and birds.  Please take a moment to enjoy the picture above and the poem below.  Be Inspired!!!

Footprints in the Sand
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand. Sometimes there were two sets of footprints, other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life, when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat, I could see only one set of footprints, so I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you, you would walk with me always. But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied, “The years when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.” 

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

Friday, November 4, 2011

A Little Morning Inspiration...

Thank you Nugget!!!

 Hello Sunshine!

This is 7 year old Michael Gallagher.  His Mom and I Kris Gallagher work together.  Michael or "Nugget" which he is also lovingly known as is a very bright and creative young man.  He loves to write stories and transform them into movies that he uploads to YouTube or make them into a interestingly funny books.

So, Nugget came to work today because his school was closed for professional development.  Everyone is crowding around him giving him hugs and welcoming him to the office.  Of course Nugget wants to give something back to everyone who has shown him love, and what better way to do that than to write little notes/drawings to us. HT got a post-it-note (remember were at the office - lol!!!) with Frogs drawn on it because she LOVES frogs.  Kris received a post-it-note with a pirate drawn on it, because she and Nugget both LOVE pirates.  Then he comes over to my desk and presents me with a post-it-note that says, "Dans in the Sun!" Dance to the sun!!!  I was so moved by this note that I was almost in tears.  His Mom Kris asked, "Nugget, why did you give that note to her?"  He answered, "Because Dans to the sun made me think of her."  A 7 year old sweet little boy has told me to "Dans to the Sun" which says to me, no matter what you are going through, always Dance to the Sun and be happy!  
So today and everyday I say to you, "Dans to the Sun!" always.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy
"Even a child is known by his actions
By whether his conduct is pure and right.
Proverbs 20:11 New International Version

"Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord,
The fruit of the womb is a reward."
Psalm 127:3 New King James Version

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

A Little Afternoon Inspiration...

Choose goodness

The time you spend living in fear is time you cannot spend living in love. The time you spend hiding and retreating from life is time you cannot spend growing and advancing and achieving.
The hours and days you spend being annoyed or frustrated are times when you deny yourself access to life’s best possibilities. When you live in anger and resentment, you cut yourself off from life’s goodness.
Sure, there are many bad things that can happen. Yet you can be aware of them, and realistic about them, without being obsessed and consumed by them.
You may very well have good reasons for resentment, frustration and anger. But that doesn’t mean those negative responses are good for you, or that you must choose them.
You can choose instead to live in the enriching, empowering light of your own highest visions. You can always choose to grow, to achieve, and to fulfill by immersing your awareness in life’s ever-present goodness.
Every aspect of your life is greatly influenced, day in and day out, by the way you imagine life to be. Imagine the best, choose the goodness, and be a source of love and light for all to see.

— Ralph Marston

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