Welcome to Phynyx Ministries!

Hello Beautiful Survivor!

Welcome to Phynyx Ministries, a place where you can obtain lots of helpful information to help you break your silence and begin to heal from being sexually assaulted. If you are not a Sexual Assault Survivor, perhaps you know someone who is. Please feel free to share this website with that person. This website is also a place where Survivor's can share their story, a poem, or words of encouragement with a survivor or anyone who chooses to visit our site.

I praise God for allowing me to survive being sexually assaulted because I now know what my purpose in this life is - and that is to be an example to those survivors who may feel that they can't move forward with their lives in a positive way. There was a time in my life when I thought that I'd never leave the confines of my mother's bedroom which was where I retreated after the attack. But I continued to pray to God for strength, peace, and sanity. I sought professional treatment and had an awesome support system.

It's been 15 years since that cold November night, but today I am happily married, have two beautiful daughters, and living life to the fullest. The road to recovery is not easy, but I made it and you can as well. Don't get me wrong, I still have flashbacks from time to time, but I've learned not to let them consume me. I know who I am and what I'm worth...I'm worth more than my attacker thought I was and like the Phoenix, I will continue to rise.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

(...what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good...)

Genesis 50:20

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Repost from August 2011: Self-worth...do you know your value???

Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Before I formed your in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart, says the Lord.
Jeremiah 1:5

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Psalm 139:13-14

Hello Precious Survivor,

Do you know that you are more precious than silver or gold, diamonds or emeralds, rubies or pearls? You are worth more to God than any materialistic item in this whole universe. He created you to do his will; to carry out your assignment He laid before you.

Being sexually assaulted caused me to have little to no self-worth. I felt lower that dirt; my self-esteem had hit rock bottom as did everything else. I felt fat and very unattractive--like everyone who looked at me knew that I had been victimized. So I began to not care less and less about my appearance. Afterall, no one man would ever fall in love with a sexual assault survivor right? After months of wallowing in self-pity and being advised by my family members, I began to yet again, pray to God to help me regain my self-worth. I'd pray, "Lord, I am your humble servant coming before you just one more time. Lord, I know that you know what I am going through right now so there's no need to explain. Jesus, I just need you to help me get back to me. Whatever it takes, I just need to get back to my old self; the happy Neicy with the big Kool-Aid smile. Please help me Lord, I can't do this without you. I ask these an all blessings in the precious name of Jesus. My soul says Amen, Amen, and Amen.

It took some time to rebuild my self-esteem, but I did it with the help of the Lord and so can you. Remember I mentioned that no man would ever fall in love with a sexual assault survivor? Well a man did. And not just any man, but a saved, sanctified man-of-God fell in love with me; Thank you Jesus! So, just ask the Lord to help you and He will. Never forget that I support you and I believe in you.

With love,
Phynyxx Skyy

So you are no longer a slave, but a daughter; and since you are a daughter, God has made you also an heir.
Galatians 4:7

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